Sunday.. We heard the news

I write the blogs for the people, but this is for me.

I’m such a genuine person, I give my all to people. Even if I just met you, I give you my all and I don’t know why I do it. It is so innate in me to just give of myself to people. I don’t expect anything in return because my riches aren’t on earth. Every time  someone burns me, I say I’m not going to do for them but then I turn around and do more. I love people, and I know God will bless me. am I wrong for wanting to be loved in return by someone other than my family and close girlfriends? Can somebody please volunteer to do something for me for once?

I’ve always been an independent woman, but I’m not out preaching that to people.  I care more about love. So what happened to the lovers? are there no more lovers? Or is that extinct these days?

No I’m not trying to rush into a relationship, I believe in courting. no I’m not going to have casual sex, no I’m not dating multiple people, no I’m not perfect but I am perfect for someone. No you don’t have to make hundreds of thousands of dollars.  No, I am not picky, but I won’t settle. Yes I can cook, and I probably will cook for you too soon. Yes I’m emotionally needy and yes I’m super honest. Yes I am too nice, yes I give too much of myself. Yes I lack motivation sometimes. Yes I plan everyone around me’s birthdays, and events free of charge and I love it!! Yes, I graduated from college, worked for many major companies, but I’m still confused as to my purpose. Yes, I love too much, love too fast and love love. No, I won’t come to your house, I’m a lady. Yes, I let the wrong people into my heart, shoot me. Yes, I can be gullible and clueless but I trust God above all he always hears my prayer!!  yes men and women tell me everyday that I am  pretty but i didn’t think i was till about 3 years ago. Yes, I’ve only had 4 boyfriends in life, all of whom still love me. No, I’m not a virgin, but yes I’m celibate. No I’m not crazy, or psycho. Yes, I have southern values and traditional ways and its rare to find someone I even like enough to date.. Yes, I fell for the wrong man, and yes he broke my heart and he didn’t even know it. Yes, I gave too much of myself, but I won’t regret it. Yes, its a never ending cycle and yes i know love will eventually find me. I tried the aggressive approach and it failed me. So now I’m in hiding until real love finds me.. whenever that is…

This probably doesn’t make since to anyone and its probably no where near as complex as I am, but its my real thoughts online and it has given me some sort of peace in the middle of this storm..

Monday we held it together and..
Wednesday we had stormy weather and..
Friday we prayed it all better and..
Sunday we heard the news.