Its 3 days until my birthday and I’m already feeling the qtr life crisis.
I’m having all kinds of emotions and feelings that I shouldn’t be and Lord knows its a time for change.
I have yet to have a pity party, but damn it, its my bday I can cry if I want to! lol
I don’t think I have it in me to cry though, I’m too much! lol I’m spoiled and I’m used to having my way. So although things aren’t the greatest and I’m happy in spite of. The Alter-Ego in me wants to just run down Peachtree Street naked to release some of the frustrations.
But I will NOT
Among other things, I have been the happiest I have EVER been. Crazy though because I am at the hardest place I have ever been! But my strength in God is so powerful that happiness is overwhelming and pushes the frustrations into the back of my brain. Even when I do feel slightly frustrated, I start thinking about how great GOD is and I smile!
Being happy in spite of is a true testament to my faith. I have unspeakable joy! Joy is really only something a Christian can get. Its an adjective that describes and emotion that only I as a Christian am able to see. Seeing past the present and into the future. My carnal mind has taken over.
I’m blessed!
*I failed the Master Cleanse* Don’t ask why! lol Just know it was medical
